Trust

"And now, O Lord, for what do I wait? My hope is in You." Psalm 39:7

Daily I get asked the question, "what next". In all honesty I don't know what next. School is an option, but it's not really a big desire upon my heart. If anything right now I want to pay off my credit card dept. I did have it all paid off, but foolishly I went and used them again, it's not really a lot, but I'm pretty much right back where I started this year, and it's even harder now because I took a very big drop in pay with the job I now have. Right now my plan is to get out of debt, after that, I don't know. I trust the Lord will guide me to where He wants me, and wherever that is I know He will provide. People tell me it's good to plan ahead, and being a former truck driver I know how true that is. But at the same time, in trucker terms, it's good to only plan for the trip you're currently on, because you never really know where you're next trip will take you. One thing the Lord has always told me when I was out on the road, and it's what I'll do till the day I die. "Trust Me", times would come on the road when I would be in total fear, and I would just hear Him say, "trust Me". He would tell me this as I felt my tires lose traction on the ice, when the snow would blow so hard I couldn't see 2 feet past my windshield. It is not an easy thing, but it is so very comforting knowing that at any time, whenever a situation scares you, you can just reach out your hand, and our Father in heaven will reach out and grab yours, and lead you through. My brothers and sisters, never give up on the Lord, He Loves you and He will never let you down.

Remember

Sitting here in my room looking at some old pictures of mine I can't help but thank the Lord for where I'm at today. I struggle day and night with different issues, and I may not have a lot of money, but I have a job, a place to come home to, and a warm bed to sleep in. I remember just a few months ago when it was snowing, the temperature was below zero, and I would be parked on an offramp wishing, if not praying, to be somewhere warm. I remember those lonely days and nights in the cold, hoping and praying that I would be able to make the next mile without sliding off the highway, looking forward to the day when I would be home. I see the weather across the country, the freezing temperatures, and I know what it's like out there. My prayers go out to those drivers out on the highways, stuck in the cold, alone, away from their families. I would pray day and night that the Lord would take me out of that life and bring me home, and He has done just that. We must not forget what the Lord has brought us out of, how His hand has always been upon us, protecting us and guiding us through the most troublesome of times. Life is not easy, and with Gods help and guidance, it's not hard either. May our Lord in Heaven bless you and guide you this day.

Through Music

These past couple of weeks I have been having a hard time writing on here. As I would sit down to start writing my mind would just draw a blank and then it would be as if a million thoughts would come racing in all at once. I knew what I wanted to write but I just couldn't focus, so many thoughts racing in all at once, it was driving me up the wall, I felt like I was being pulled in 50 different directions all at once. On my way to church I asked the Lord to help me focus, to pretty much "defrag" my mind and get my thoughts in order. Listening to our musical guest tonight at church did just that. The piano and violin are my two most favorite instruments, violin being the first, and when played together they make the most beautiful music. Through the use of these instruments tonight the Lord showed me what it was that was causing me to loose focus, I was beginning to focus more on my current problems then on my relationship with the Lord, I wasn't keeping up with my devotions and was falling behind in my daily reading of God's word, and because of that I was beginning to make a mess of things. In order for beautiful music to come out of these instruments you need 3 things, the instrument, the sheet music, and the musician, but the main thing you need is the sheet music. This is why I love classical music so much because this is how I see it. My life is the instrument, and I am the musician, the bible is my sheet music. When put together it's a thing of beauty. If while the musician was playing, he began to focus on other things and not on the music in front of him, he would began to make mistakes and his music would sound ugly. Like so, if we do not focus upon Gods word it is easy for us to stumble and make mistakes in our daily walk with God. As the musician plays for the audience, we live life for our Father in Heaven, He is our audience; and as we live daily by His word, He smiles and sees a thing of beauty. We are all musicians, and I like to believe that when the Lord looks upon us from Heaven, He sees an entire orchestra playing their best for Him.

A New Start

My time as a cross country truck driver has come to an end. After I returned the company truck to their yard in Hudsonville,MI I enjoyed (to an extent), a train ride home, then packed for a missions trip to Bay St.Louis, MS. I couldn't have asked for anything better, the Lord has placed me on a new path in life and He allowed me to begin it by serving Him. I would love to describe the trip to BSL but I'm still in the process of collecting my thoughts on it, and when the time is right I will share those thoughts, but for now all I can say is the Lord is starting a new work in my life and I can't wait to see what He has in store for me. I don't know what to expect, but I do know that God has it all worked out and I trust and believe in Him.

Don't lose sight...

"...let me recover my sight." Luke 10:53

Yesterday as I drove into Grand Rapids,MI I ran into a thick batch of falling snow. I wouldn't say it was a storm, but it was coming down pretty good. It seemed the further west I got the worse it got. I became angry and I guess you can say I doubted God because He didn't clear the roads all the way like I asked. The Lord gave me over 2,000 miles of clear weather and dry roads, and on the very last 100 miles I hit snowfall. I focused so much on the last 100 miles that I lost sight of what the Lord had done the previous days. I quickly forgot how He broke apart the clouds in Idaho, how He dried the roads in Wyoming, when He kept the temperature warm enough so I wouldn't hit the freezing rain in Indiana(I mean, yea 35 degrees really isn't warm, but it's above freezing). How easy it is to lose sight, how quickly we can forget the things the Lord has done for us. My friends, when you see a storm coming, remember how the Lord brought you through past storms, even removed them from your path completely sometimes. Don't lose sight of what God has done, or is doing in your lives right now. Trust in the Lord, and may your sight remain on Him.

A Calm Day

Today wasn't to bad of a day, I think the highest the temperature got was about 24 degrees, which I know is a bit cold, but it didn't snow at all and that's all that matters. Tomorrow's another story though, from the reports I've been seeing it's supposed to be a mix of snow and ice on my route all day, but the Lord has been blessing me this week with good weather so we'll see. Just a couple more weeks out here then I'm done, and the only cold weather I'll see will be on tv. Can't write much more, battery power is running low, until next time. God bless

He Hears...

"Hear, O Lord, when I cry aloud; be gracious to me and answer me!" Psalm 27:7

This morning before I started off down the road I had just sat in my truck, and asked the Lord to please, please clear the storm before me. I had prayed that He would just reveal His glory by breaking apart the clouds and allowing the light from His sun to shine through. As I drove off to my delivery the clouds only seemed to get darker, and the snow thicker. Yes, I was a little disappointed, and right away the enemy started on his little lies, trying to convince me that my prayers weren't heard, that I cried out in vain. Instead of listening to his lies I just put on some music (classical music of course, always cheers me up) and just talked to the Lord. Not to long after that I noticed the clouds beginning to thin, and the sun becoming visible, a little while longer blue sky began to appear, and wouldn't you know it, the clouds broke apart and the sun shone forth with all it's might. For the entire day the sky was just so beautiful it's hard to put into words. This just shows me that no matter how dark the storm, when you cry out to God and just talk to Him, He will reveal Himself to you. Maybe not right away in the split second you ask Him, but as you continue to seek Him, He will break through whatever storm your going through and reveal Himself to you and comfort you. Trust in the Lord my friends, know that He hears your prayers, and when His time is right, He will answer them.